Pretty nice song I would say =P

A few hiccups here and there as usual, but anyway enjoy!~ ^_^

It's dated way back, in 2004 so it's like 6 years ago? Definitely a long way back.

It's been...let's see 4 years ago I've typed my first blog on blogspot. Due to some forseen and unforseen circumstances some entries were long lost forever =D

But the thing is that sometimes it's kinda good to keep these backlogs. There just markings of how much one has changed over the years. And for some old entries of mine I had a great time smirking how foolish I had been in the past over the years. But still one shouldn't undermine them, for after all they are still the "scars" of the past. Without those events, I reckon one would not be who they were today.

Anyway, enough of the past, more of the present.

I am glad to say that I am feeling to get into the tempo with the progress in school now. Yes, time certainly flies. Week 5, and blink blink recess week is UPON US!!!~ (soon i guess =.=)

Shall need to get back to work. Had been procrastinating for some time today already.

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It's strange, how one can forget some things so simple, when trying to forget something that complicated. ^_^

Lets see now. Somethings got blew up due to some egoistic person and had a series of chain effects thereafter. Following that head to Joyce's party at The Nova while HM went and face the most vital moment in his whole life. Luckily all's well and ends well. ^_^ Which is a major sigh of relief for him, since he was troubled ever since that morning. Now with the major roadblock somehow removed, I do hope that for him the remaining issues will resolve with ease.

Just came back from NTUCO concert. Went with Hongsheng and Deric. Can't really comment much, since my standard did dropped drastically over the 3 years. But still I think most likely I will join that ECA, most probably in year 2 when things settle down a bit? Oh well, but the good things is that I saw lots of familiar faces at Victoria Concert hall today. Which is a definitely surprise.

Somehow Colinson's flight had been brought forward before the Chinese New year. Still pondering how to send him off, since I think he's checking in at 7 but my lesson officially ends on 630 that day. Can't possibly drive there since it's the traffic congestion period. Think I'll just miss the lesson, since most likely I will be seeing lotsa stars in that particular lecture anyway.

Back to study again. I understand that lectures can put you to sleep, but reading the textbook and jotting down notes of the same module as the lecture can actually make you doze off. And fyi, it's maths related. This shows that it's neither mine nor the lecturer's fault. It's the course content's fault for being so dry. Linear Algebra, Vector spaces. Sigh~ Time for me to see multi-dimensional planes again.

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Yes and its week 4 and I am still salvaging bits and pieces over here and there. It's almost as if I am stuck in the middle of the sea, and I am swimming in all directions and land is still nowhere to be seen.

I failed to notice that there was an online quiz due last sunday and I had forgotten to complete the quiz. ouch.

Things with lotsa things to do is that there will be lots of deadlines involved. And when the workload gets pretty heavy the higher the tendency will be to push the job till its quite near the deadline. And that, is just playing with fire unknowingly.

I mean, it's always easier to think: " K I will complete this the day after, let me take my well-deserved break". And soon before you realize the sky starts to fall upon you and there you will be slogging till wee hours in the morning. And guess what, the following's day lesson starts at 830, and lack of sleep has resulted in you dozing off in classes, and then you will have an extra job of understanding what the lecturer is talking about for the past 2 hours on your own.

In short. It's just a vicious cycle.

Anyway, today I have really just reached my saturation point. The sensation was like nothing more could go in and you head feels heavy, and there seems no way that the "load" inside will be coming out. Had no choice but went to Gombak stadium for a run. Helps alot though, and indeed my efficiency of completing my job had increased by 200%. Which is really a good thing. I might explore on allocating more time to my exercise regime. Especially when the festive season is around the corner.

I can't wait for recess week to come. Hope the spare time can really salvage my dying game of tetris.

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Sometimes its good to contain some feelings and keep them to yourselves, but when the bottle reaches the brim, one couldn't help but to let the feelings overflow.

There will be at times things you know it's pointless to do, yet there is an impulse there urging you to do it.

I guess that is what people call your brain tells you one thing, your heart tells you another.

But as a physics student I chose to follow what my brain tells me to do. But of course, there will be a price to pay. ^_^

Nevertheless. how I wish there will be some way for me to empty this bottle of mine. The feelings of forbidden affections gushing out is simply...tiring.

Perhaps it's just me going through a hard time.

But come to think of it, at times like this, who doesn't? =)

But I guess what's most important is that some people does bits and little things that certainly light up my day ^_^.

Week 4, 10 more weeks to go!~

February-- the month of getting fat, both physically and financially.

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Most important of all, I know that I am not alone anymore ^_^

Press on!~ =D

Had a fun evening yesterday. Besides wii-ing and eating the steamboat yesterday, had a bit of chit chat and chilling out. It's nice to take a breather once in a blue moon, since it's just helps you to take your mind off some things that simply you do not wish to think anymore. For instance, your tutorials T_T

Not to mention, it doesn't look like it but do not underestimate its size. It's bigger than my face, and 10 people together are having a hard time trying to finish this baby off. =D

And yup I am very grateful for my present-- a digital photoframe. I can think of so many uses for it right now ^_^

K, putting this aside:

I guess it's really time for me to be more serious towards my work. I acknowledge that I've been pretty obstinate regarding some things and hence resulting from backlogs because I need to do double job。(long story) But still when grades are involved, some things just simply couldn't go in your way.

And oh yes today finally marks the end of HaiPai. A great show I would say, rating would be a 9/10. Definitely a must watch, since it is extremely successful in evoking all sorts of feelings from its audience. Never did a show I felt so emo, and never in the same show I laughed as much =D

K, it's pretty late. Going to turn in soon. A long week ahead.

I can already feel monday blues coming. Especially when you need to stay in school to finish your report when your lessons actually end on 1230pm. Zz.

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And accumulation of negative energy = emo state.

Prolong emo state = do stupid things

Regret doing stupid things for some time = gets despair over time

Gets despair over time = do stupid things to atone for your mistake

do more stupid things to atone = finding yourself stupid doing those things

Therefore final equation:

NEGATIVE ENERGY =STUPID =D =D =D

Sometimes studying too much physics just makes you think of such weird weird stuffs yourself to spice up your day when things just somehow doesn't go your way ^_^

Sometimes just staring at the pile of work left can be indeed demoralizing, but thinking of some happy stuffs could actually dispel them momentarily. For instance, I will be happy thinking of all the food that I liked to eat ^_^

But of course actually get to eat them is still the best =P

But actually when all fails the best remedy is just to tackle it with an almighty smile =D

So. Smile!~ =D

-Calvin's very own (and new) self-inspiring philosophy ^_^-

Oh well, if I can refer to this philosophy whenever I feel down I hope it really does alleviate my woes just a little ^_^. I need all the help I can get. As well as those in which I can give myself =D

Oh, and I managed to give away the tickets for NTUCO to Darrell and XL!~ Muahha. So I am in luck I guess, after got rejected by so many people T_T

K, happy times passes fast indeed, gotta dive in the pool to continue doing my report.... / =.=''

*plops*

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